Getting My Life Back

As you can see, my dogs make me very happy, especially when Molly gives me doggie kisses. But I'm particularly happy having my photo taken in that field for a reason. In October 2010 I took the dogs walking in this field. That morning I had the first bout of epileptic seizures I was going to experience for the next nine months which eventually led to me being re-diagnosed with a different kind of epilepsy. Nearly two years on, I have finally felt confident enough to venture into that field once again. Out of all the fields we have on the farm, that is one I refused to enter again, merely because it brought back the memory of having a seizure and me coming round not knowing where I was.

Yesterday, Amy and I walked with the dogs from bale to bale, taking pictures, laughing, joking, playing with the dogs and having a wonderful time. I did think about that morning nearly two years ago, but I didn't fear it, like I have been doing for such a long time. For me, this has been a milestone and a way forward, knowing I am no longer scared to walk through that field and recollect those awful moments that felt like forever. Here are a few more photos we took. I feel a sense of pride in that I have more courage than I thought I had, and perhaps this will help me to once more live my life to the full.