Pissed Off

I wouldn't normally use language in my blog titles in case my mum miraculously looks at my blog but I just fancy a good rant. I could keep this blog all fluffy bunny and daffodils, but lambing leaves one knackered, and the fact I'm not wearing eye make up must mean knackered has most definitely set in. I didn't even put any on to meet with our arable sales rep the other day, and that's quite unheard of. The price of fertilizer is eye wateringly expensive and we're trying not to worry about it. But, believe it or not, we don't spend our lives thinking about the price of fertilizer or even the expense of bottle feeding lambs. My technically challenged self is getting fed up with blogging. There, I said it. It's not the writing of a blog post and it's definitely not the reading of them, but it's the problems blog hosts seem to have frequently, thus making it really hard to comment and in some cases, read, a blog post. I've gone self hosted with my paranormal blog just as an experiment. I'm not brave enough to make any changes to this one just yet. And I can't even blame the government for the stupid, ridiculous and very unnecessary changes that Blogger keep making. Don't they realise they're making a total balls up of a blog hosting platform that once used to be immensely popular and one that the majority of bloggers used? I don't want to carry on blogging if it means all this hassle. And for me, it is a hassle. I love my blog, with a passion. And I love your blogs, too. I started this blog almost five years ago because I wanted to write. I also wanted to find a bit of popularity, meet some people, connect with others around the world. That shouldn't be a hassle, should it?

You see, the bottom line is, I'm not really pissed off with Blogger as such; I'm really pissed off at me. Building up this blog, maintaining it over the years, being proud of it, being ashamed of it, being in charge of it has all been a wonderful journey. For someone like me, who hasn't been used to having many friends, was bullied for years at school, has low self-esteem, bites her nails for England and is petrified of being in a group of more than 2 people, being at the centre of this blog has been an amazing feat. My problem is, I just don't understand technology. I get confused when people start talking about codes and ISP's, domains and HTML's, and generally, I get really pissed off with myself for having a brain that just can't seem to soak up the knowledge so many people have been kind enough to offer. If it's simple enough it's not too bad. But once the technical jargon kicks in I clam up and somehow my brain switches off. See, can't even blame the government for that either. I feel like one of those old buggers who constantly rants about "young 'uns today". Blogging isn't like it used to be. And that's a fact.

But just so you know I'm not going anywhere, cos I know you'd all be devastated, I've re-invented the page where I promote really great blog posts that I've come across, Blog Posts of the Week. And there's also one called Lambwatch Pictures for you to swoon over, too.